Trough of disillusionment
I was told this would happen. I just didn’t know when or how it would come about. I think I’ve officially hit the “trough of disillusionment.” I’m having an off week..It started after a small mugging incident I had last Saturday. Thankfully nothing happened, I am OK and even got to keep all of my stuff. However, I feel a bit trapped due to the violence and criminal activity here in San Miguel. I know that what I am doing here is more important than any other work I could be doing at home. But yes, I miss my fiance, Sunday night football, and hearing my dog snore. The prospect of being trapped for the next 3 months due to safety concerns isn’t very uplifting.
During our week of training, the Kiva Fellows Program team told us about this very moment I am going through. The moment when everything was going to look dark and sad, and we would just wake up one day and say – “what the heck am I doing here?!” But I am not throwing the towel. I am seeing great progress here at Fundacion Campo, how we’ve gone from zero to more than $17K raised on Kiva. And that’s just the beginning. I still have so many clients to meet, and lessons to learn.
Posted on September 28, 2011, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.
Now that you’ve said it, the emotional power of your feelings is shared and easier to handle. We’re pulling for you stateside. I spoke about you today to an Economics teacher who would love to meet you. Hang in there!
Eleanor
thank you so much Eleanor for your encouragement. I’ll do my best to make things work. I have to come visit the HS when I’m back! 🙂